Both of their heads popped up, and Katherine stood.
She looked beautiful in a cream-colored forties-style house dress with red polka dots on it. Her chocolate dark brown hair—the same shade as Jared’s—hung over her shoulders in loose curls, but pieces were brought up in two barrettes on each side of the top of her head.
My father, on the other hand, was a mess. Disheveled hair he’d probably been running his fingers through, a wrinkled white shirt, blue silk tie hanging loose, and he’d definitely been crying.
He sat there, unmoving, and actually looking a little afraid of me.
Katherine cleared her throat. “Of course.”
I stepped out of the doorway as she walked past, but I reached out and grabbed her hand, stopping her. I kissed her cheek and gave her a grateful smile. “Thanks,” I whispered.
Her eyes shined, and she nodded before leaving.
My father hadn’t moved from his chair, and I did a sweep of the room, remembering that I was never allowed in here as a kid. My father wasn’t hiding things. Not in here anyway. But he once said “his whole life” was in this room, and it wasn’t a place for kids.
I think that was the first time I realized that I wasn’t my dad’s top priority. There were things he loved more than me.
But looking at him now . . . his weary eyes, his physical strain, and the silence that told me he didn’t know what to say to me offered up a different conclusion.
Maybe my dad cared.
Taking a deep breath, I stepped toward him. “I never liked you, Dad.” I spoke slowly, taking my time. “You worked too much, and you never showed up when you said would. You made my mother cry, and you thought money could fix everything. And the worst part is that you’re not stupid. You knew the void you left in your family, but you did it anyway.”
I narrowed my eyes, challenging him to say something. Anything to account for himself.
But his eyes had dropped to the desk with my first words, and they had stayed there.
So I continued, straightening my shoulders more. “I love Fallon. And I love this house. I want you in my life, but if you’re going to throw your weight around like it matters, then you can go to hell.” I paused, coming up in front of the desk. “We don’t need you. But I do love you, Dad.”
My jaw tightened, and I blinked away the sting in my eyes.
He raised his eyes, and it was a look I’d never seen before. They shimmered with tears, but they were hard. My father wanted to fight. In his head he worried about my education, Fallon and me having jobs, dealing with marriage when we were still growing up, but that’s what he didn’t notice.
I’d stopped growing up when Fallon left.
And I started again when she came home.
You have to have something to love. Something to fight for to make living a goal instead of a job. Fallon wouldn’t keep me from tomorrow. My father had done that.
I held his stare, ready for whatever he wanted to throw at me, but he should know better. If he didn’t support us, we were doing it without him.
Finally standing up, he ran his hands through his hair and tightened his tie. I watched him as he went to his safe, dialed in the combination, and took out some papers. Returning to his desk, he signed the document and handed it to me over the desk.
I hesitated. It was probably a new will leaving me in the cold or some such bullshit.
“I’m keeping the other two-thirds of your trust and doling it out as was already planned,” he explained. “But here’s a wedding gift . . . if we can fight hard enough to keep it.”
Confused, I unfolded the papers again, and a sliver of a smile escaped my lips.
“The house?” I asked, surprised.
He’d given me the deed to the house, but it wasn’t in my name. Excitement and confusion rushed through my very clouded brain.
Did I want the house?
Yes.
Forever and ever and ever?
Hell yes!
I loved it here, and so did Fallon. If we could keep it in Caruthers hands, we would. But what did this mean for my father? I didn’t necessarily want him gone.
Kind of.
No, not really.
“Patricia’s trying to take the house. I’m sure you know.” My father’s eyes clouded in an expression I was more familiar with. “But I’ll drag her through court for as long as I can. It may take a year, but I’ll win. The house is in my name, but as my wife, she has rights to it until a court says she doesn’t. I’ll transfer the house to you officially when I take away that threat.” He stood up straight, reaching out his hand to me. “But the house is yours for all intents and purposes. I know you and Fallon—and Addie—love it here, and I want you to have your home.
I took his hand, and the furious flow of blood through my veins relaxed. I wasn’t sure if my father was really giving up, if he was just that tired of drama, or if he was bluffing.
But when I looked at him, I saw his relaxed eyes turn bleary, and before I knew it I was yanked in for a hug.
“Whoa,” I grunted against the crush of his arms and almost laughed. I wasn’t sure if this was a joke or if it was supposed to be funny, but rare and weird things are funny. To me.
But as I tried to catch my breath, I kind of realized that my dad wasn’t letting go. His arms were as tight as steel around me, and I couldn’t remember the last time he’d hugged me.
And I don’t think it was ever this tight.
I found my arms slowly wrapping around him and returning the embrace.
“Katherine’s right.” He stepped back and squeezed my shoulders. “You can’t stay away from her, can you?”
“If you could go back with Katherine and redo things—”
He nodded. “Then you and Jared would’ve been stepbrothers a long, long time ago,” he finished, understanding.
“I won’t live with those regrets. I’m doing this, Dad.” I held my position. “We’ll be fine.”
Fearing the breakup of his marriages or contending with Katherine’s alcoholism in the past were things my father had let get in his way. From him I learned that mistakes can be dealt with. Loss of time can’t.
He slapped me on the back and let out a heavy breath. “So where’s Fallon?”
CHAPTER 30
FALLON
Katherine had come into the kitchen shortly after me, and I wished I could shrink away.
Until she came up and hugged me.
I held my breath, completely confused.
Yeah, hi. I’m the girl that nearly threatened to expose your affair on TV, and I’m solely responsible for your boyfriend’s divorce chaos right now. But sure, I’ll take some hugs!
Once she let go, I sank into the barstool as she dug out all of the fixings for sundaes from the refrigerator.
There were lots of questions I wanted to ask her. She was, after all, having an affair with my mother’s husband. I should despise her. Or at the very least dislike her. I definitely shouldn’t respect a home-wrecker.
But for some reason—or many reasons—I felt like my mother was the sleazy one out of the group.
And one thing could not be denied about Katherine. A nearly eighteen-year affair was love.
She was very beautiful, too. And young. Still young enough to have more kids.
“I’m surprised you’re so calm about this.” I picked at my vanilla and caramel sundae.
She shrugged, still scooping a serving for Madoc. All chocolate. “I started young, too,” she conceded. “But unlike me, you and Madoc have an excellent support system.” Yeah, she was right. I still didn’t know where my dad stood on this, and I planned on calling him first thing in the morning. But Madoc and I had means to live, and we had Addie at the very least. We were lucky.
“Aren’t you afraid Jared will get inspired and propose to Tate?” I teased.
Her head fell back as she laughed softly. “No.” She sounded sure.
“No?”
“I think you and Madoc have overcome . . . more mature issues, shall we say? I can understand how marriage feels like the natural next step. Jared and Tate on the other hand? They were in so much heartache for each other for so long that I think they just want to be left alone for a while. They need their calm.”
Just then we heard Madoc’s and his dad’s voices coming down the hall, and Katherine and I turned to see them enter with smiles on their faces.
My stomach pinched with anticipation, but my shoulders relaxed a little. Seeing Jason head straight for me, I pushed my hair behind my ears, taking inventory of everything I was wearing. Jeans and one of my black fitted, long-sleeve T’s, but I was still wearing my Burberry coat. My hair was still in loose curls from the “wedding,” and it still looked good last time I checked, despite the twenty-four hours Madoc and I had spent in bed.
Jason’s eyes were relaxed and welcoming, but he looked like he wasn’t breathing. His expression was pleasant but guarded.
Tipping my chin up, he placed a quick, gentle kiss on my forehead and then took my hand, looking down at the ring.
“Looks good on you. Congratulations.”
Huh?
That’s it? That can’t be it.
“Thank you,” I mumbled, searching the floor for my jaw.
“If you both want some advice from a man who’s about to have two divorces behind him . . .” Jason looked between Madoc and me. “Fight. Fight through everything. Don’t leave the house angry or go to bed mad. Fight until it’s settled. The end of fighting is the beginning of giving up.”
And then he looked at me. “Don’t let him off the hook. You understand?”
I swallowed and gave him a small nod.
“Mr. Caruthers?” I asked.
He raised his eyebrows at me. “Jason.”
“Jason. I owe you an apology. This mess with the divorce—”
“Had to happen, Fallon,” he finished, cutting me off. “It’s fine. Well, it will be fine eventually,” he offered.
With a nod to Katherine, they walked out the way they came in. “Katherine and I are going to her house for the night,” he said. “We’ll see you Friday night at the charity auction.”
And they left.
Madoc plopped down on the stool at the bar. Pulling me in between his legs, he nuzzled my neck, sending shivers down my spine.
“Madoc?” I closed my eyes, leaning in to his spectacular kisses. “Baby, I am sorry, but I think I need to get back to school tomorrow.”
He stopped. Like stopped so fast, I thought he was dead. Taking his head out from my neck, he flashed slightly pissed blue eyes at me.
“Why?” It sounded more like a dare than a question.
“Oh, I got an e-mail from a professor.” I picked up my phone, gesturing with it. “He’s fine with me missing a few classes, but I’m going to miss a guest lecturer tomorrow and a test on Friday. They’re both really important.”
I’d already missed three days of classes.
He finally heaved a sigh. “All right. I’ll crash with Jared, so we don’t have to be separated. You go to class, I’ll work out getting transferred to Northwestern, and we’ll start looking for apartments. We have to be in Chicago for that charity thing on Friday anyway. We’ll leave early in the morning.”
Hanging my arms over his shoulder, I joined my hands behind his neck. “Thank you.”
Sinking into him and his man scent, I took his top lip between my lips, and he took my bottom lip between his. It’s the kiss we always ended up in. All four lips, layered as one as we just stilled and breathed each other in.
Can I just say how much I loved to smell him? I loved that he wore cologne, and he always would. Or else.
“Come on, let’s go shower,” he whispered into my mouth.
I shook my head. “No, you go.”
“No, I mean I want a shower with you.”
